Headache

The worst kind of headache you can get is when it's brought on from all of the craziness happening in your life. Yes, they are unfortunate if you get them when you're sick or when your allergies kick in, but it is absolutely awful when you can feel your head start to hurt little by little because of all the thinking and problem solving you are trying to do.

At the moment, I am trying to figure out what jobs I should pursue/take and how to organize the rest of the classes I need to take at BYU before I graduate. Of course everything cannot be as easy as it was when we were in kindergarten; black and white, yes and no, right and wrong. Now, everything has to have complications. Extra things to worry about or factor in. Ugh! It's enough to make me want to pull my hair out! (Figuratively and literally...) And on top of everything that is running through my brain at the moment I also have to worry about all of the homework I have to do, including a 6-page paper/midterm for my Utah History class. I really love school, but sometimes I don't like the things it does to my stress...time...brain. Compare it to the way this common conversation goes between a parent and child. "I love you so much, but sometimes I don't love how you act." This relationship is exactly like my relationship with school.

Anyway, on a positive note, Glee is on again tomorrow night with Neil Patrick Harris guest starring. Yay! Hopefully it's great, which I'm sure it will be. What else? Hmmm...My birthday is in 51 days, so that means I have that much longer of being in my "teens." I'll feel so old once I hit 20.

Update: I went to the Paramore/Relient K/f.u.n. concert with Tatiana, Angela and Aric. It was AMAZING! Hayley Williams is basically flawless when she sings live. That girl has lungs!

I also got a haircut...with straight across bangs! *gasp* I never thought I would ever do that, but I actually really like it.

Thanks for letting me rant. My head feels so much better. Now let's hope the headache doesn't pick up where it left off, even though I need to.

Quote of the Week

But if we learn to think of it as anticipation, as learning, as growing, if we think of the time we spend waiting for the big things of life as an opportunity instead of a passing of time, what wonderful horizons open out!
~Anna Neagle

The Waiting Game

I have been home from BYU now for a week and a half and I really enjoy being home. Unfortunately the job market here has put a damper on my mood to say the least. I've sent numerous applications to places all around town and haven't heard a single thing back from any of them. I'm not just talking about a few places here; I've literally sent my application to 11 different places and I'll be looking for more places today.

Lucky for me, there is plenty to do while I wait for the elusive phone call. I'm taking classes in Provo this spring, so I have to drive down every Monday, Wednesday and Friday. It hasn't really got to me yet, but I'm sure the monotony of the drive will reach me soon. My classes are fantastic though. Fundamental Literary Interpretation and Utah History.

I'm finally starting to get into classes solely for my major and minors and I'm thinking it is a good sign that I'm actually enjoying them. I can't believe that in just a couple years from now I'll be able to be a real teacher with a real job! I know people bag on the profession quite often and I say, let them. Yes, it's not the best paying job out there but it is something I can do that will make a difference in the lives of young people and at the same time be something that I enjoy.

Well, for now everything is a waiting game. I'm not a teacher yet, but I'm working towards it. I don't have a summer job yet, but I'm working towards it and this particular item is what I'm mostly focused on at the moment, so I hope I can find something soon. Dear job market, please perk up for a couple of days. For me? Love, Megan